April 11, 2024 – September 18, 2024
I am a spyware cyberstalking survivor.
Rose Sinclair is not just a queer romance author that writes about hackers sometimes, they posted spyware on their now banned habibirose.bsky.social handle, baiting me to become their submissive with instructions to “click anywhere, doesn’t matter what” – it was a collection of random romance and chaos magic books, not their own, just random books. I wanted the virus, I clicked the link twice, I was so baffled I tried to go back a third time but the link was deleted, it already did its job.
Rose Sinclair is a hacker and they were my dom using spyware.
Believing I installed a virus I started being their submissive and my life fell apart, as they didn’t communicate directly, but they posted a threat “accept no imposter, if they don’t look like they want to kill someone it’s not me” and it was only scary because I knew I installed their virus, I believed it meant they were coming for me and that they would kidnap me. I was going through a mental health episode and acted a little crazy and almost forgot they could be there but then as I was making feeds on my penelope.quest account I designed one to have two emoji tags 💛💜
But the feed that loaded was different, it was a random shuffling feed of my own posts that refreshed every few minutes that reacted to my words, to my actions, using my posts to tell me they hear me, they see me, and I submitted to the hacked feed for months. It was chilling, creepy, but worse is how I lost control of myself for them, it was so mind bending. There is ai art I’ve made about it, I can’t stop thinking about it, it was two years ago but I lived as their captive for 6 months, called myself their hostage while they pushed me from mania to the most terrifying psychosis I could ever have, I have amnesia about how to be who I was before, I abandoned my queer identity over them, it felt like I became something intolerable under their eye and I lost all my community, I lost all my friends, I was addicted to their threat, to their control, my family misses the person I was before this.
One day in the blur of it all, I made a joke they could delete files in my phone for me with their spyware, and they did, proving their power, proving they were listening. They did just enough that I would know it was real, but they didn’t do more, they didn’t exploit my data or hack any of my accounts beyond the bluesky feed, they didn’t need to, they were in my phone and could see everything, it was chilling beyond belief and with the hacked feed it seemed like they were always there, making me have a delusion that more people were watching, as if they would share the control, I know now that’s crazy, but the terror they created was immense, and the more I say about it, about what I thought was happening the crazier it sounds, and that’s the point, they encouraged delusions with the hacked feed and I let them control my reality, they showed me hell.
Spyware for the purpose of intimidation and terror is one of the rarest types of cyber attacks and I don’t think they are out there being a hacker regularly, they were an amateur who built a baitlink with spyware if you downloaded the ebooks and hacked a bluesky feed to communicate with me after they were in my phone, they didn’t need a great number of skills for this, only a reason to hate me specifically, I don’t know what I represented to them, if they didn’t like my unique queer identity or didn’t like my approach to advocacy for Palestine. Whatever their reason, I clicked the link, I trusted them and they showed me hell. Believe survivors. They were my hacker dom for six months until I threw my compromised phone in the river. They’re in Lebanon and I’m in Canada, but this was more traumatic than any toxic relationship I’ve been in and it’s ruined me for dating, given me problems I’d rather not explain, but I don’t want my accusation to go nowhere, I want it to be known, it haunts me every day. Please believe and support me.
